I don’t think the calm, happy sort of meditation does the trick for me. I get overwhelmed by information. I don’t know if having an NDE did this to me, or if this is something that would have happened anyway. I find it helps to just pick out something to focus on when it all feels like too much. I can’t block out the information for long, I’ve tried that. So instead I try to be a good observer and that effort seems to take me out of panic mode.

That’s what I’m doing right now. Trying to pick out one set of colors from a sea of colors. It really is hard to panic when you are being analytical. I know seeing colors around things is kind of flaky, but I don’t have to react in a flaky way. I’m actually feeling much better now.

Thanks SO much for sharing this! I’m having the same “problem” in my practice, although until reading your post, I was having a hard time articulating exactly what was bugging me. How convenient to have my own question asked and answered with such clarity and wisdom!

Thanks again!

When it comes to my anomalous experiences, my intellectual brain seems to be coping the best. I’ve been reading everything I can on parapsychology to try and make sense of things. I understand that even though we might not understand exactly what causes anomalous experiences, people have them and there is nothing wrong with having them. So that part of me is working through the literature as a means of coping, which I guess is OK.

Meanwhile, my emotional brain is still going “NO! NO! NO! NO!”. And my physical reaction to anomalous experiences has typically been to throw up.

So are my emotional and physical reactions just the stupid ones? Or are they just slower? There was a time when my intellect was very good about rationalizing away any experience that didn’t fit into my worldview. I guess back then, all of my brains were in agreement.

When pk was happening around me a lot, the RSPK kind of thing where things happened with no control on my park, that didn’t seem to require any kind of change in my state of consciousness that I could notice. Unless being really frightened or upset counts as a change in consciousness. The way I perceived my surroundings didn’t change. That kind of pk isn’t as common anymore. But admittedly, I do my best to avoid situations that might set it off. Maybe being a pk agent was my SOB? (I had to use that acronym! )

I’ve been working on doing more controlled pk in hopes of gaining some control over my situation. (Basically, I’ve found a more discrete way of venting.) I wonder when I experiment successfully with controlled pk if I am going into an altered state of consciousness? Things tend to look as if they are almost curving up on themselves. I don’t feel like I normally do. I feel sort of electric. And “things” don’t seem very real, but the colors around things do. There is a funny coherence, like everything is lining up somehow.

I think doing meditation has helped me pay attention to what I’m experiencing when the pk occurs, so maybe before I didn’t notice the changes as much. It does seem like being a pk agent was more like a state of being and that doing controlled pk is more like learning to change the particular state of consciousness I’m in.

I could be mistaken though. Perhaps I misunderstand your terminology?