I know this lifetime is important. I remember that from the NDE place, but I have trouble understanding why and what I’m supposed to do about it.

I know being psychic is not waking up. I think that maybe it could be a side effect of the process. I’m just not so sure how understanding the bigger picture is going to end suffering. It won’t end my suffering in this lifetime. I can see how if everyone woke up, then everyone would be better off. But being aware and watching the people I love living like zombies is hard. So I fight it. But I get really tired sometimes and just give in every so often. It seems funny that I wake up when I’m too exhausted to stay asleep. That seems to be when I touch that bigger reality.

When I was in the NDE place, and even when I come close to it sometimes, it feels like waking up would be OK. But everything in the NDE place feels OK. Way better than OK, in fact. I just worry that the NDE place won’t work here. Just because everything is OK in that light, doesn’t mean everything is OK here. Maybe if more of that light were here. People do make their own light sometimes, and it can be really awesome. But there isn’t anywhere near enough of that light here. And I can only make so much light by myself.

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I’m not sure what you consider waking up is what most people think of as waking up.

In the Buddhist sense, (and they own the term since Buddha means “the awakened one”, waking up is not being psychic, but understanding reality in a way that ends suffering.

Wouldn’t you like to stop suffering?

Vipassana isn’t the only Buddhist practice. Some of the other practices are very good are relieving stress.

@ Anonymous,
Very funny. And it doesn’t work either. If do fall asleep that way, the colors tend to be very bright and noisy and they wake me up. That’s why I don’t meditate too late at night because I would stay up to watch the colors. It reminds me of waking up in the middle of the night to watch the Northern Lights as a kid.

I know people are supposed to want to wake up, but I don’t want to. Grandma says that sometimes what we want isn’t as important as what we need. I spent an hour today walking in the rain trying to figure out why anyone needs to wake up. Grandma says everyone needs to wake up.

Hi Sandy,

I think it might help if you tried meditating while lying in bed. Many people have difficulty meditating while lying down because they tend to fall asleep. But, for you this would be just what you want – a practice that will not wake you up but put you to sleep.

It is nice that you are providing the instructions for waking up, but I don’t suppose you could tell us how to get back to sleep, could you?
These instructions can be all too readily found in your daily paper, on TV and radio, and in your own mind and those of others.
After all, when the going gets tough, the tough go shopping…..